Have you noticed , that for a very long time now, we are encouraged in every walk of life to keep going forward, almost as though with each new day we were born anew and had no previous experience? It’s interesting too that this attitude to life, if you subscribe to it, makes you easy to con!
As I write I am feeling strange , as though I’m been flung forward with nothing behind my back to support me and a huge overwhelming fear of being dropped off the planet. It seems to me that such is the lack of holding, containment and decimation of trust in modern times is having a very strange affect on our lives.
Consider, with me, for a moment, how, with individual, or even the trauma within a small group it may be possible to support those effected, but with the whole word in chaos support is not so easy because there is so little behind our backs in the now. The ongoing fallout from this situation is horrendous.
In our lifetime we have become so accustomed to established society with working institutions which supported our lives and living that as they crumble away we are struggling some more successfully than others, to centre ourselves in a topsy turvey world. Imagine reaching out for a lovely slice of bread, when you are really hungry, and even though it’s spread with butter it disintegrates, just as you reach for it, you try again and all that’s left is a stack of crumbs on the floor.
The feeling of loss and subsequent rage is phenomenal, because there seems to be no way to find another piece, but hold on examine, when as this happened before? Now even thinking about this question allows us to remember our history and experience and the stories handed down the generations about coping in desperate situations, isn’t it interesting that one can almost feel the knowledge emerging from this history catapulting us forward but with a large harness on our backs supporting us as we go.
Looking back allows us to glean information on how to go forward, within the looking there is a rich source of information waiting, stored for our use, and we can put that information to use in our own way as we walk in recovery.
It is quite normal, in today’s world, to feel that you are doing well and getting over the whole chaotic experience of the last years and then sometime later to feel in an opposite mood fed up with the mess and needing and wanting to get out of it all. However walking in recovery means returning quietly in thought to the question what’s happening here?Allowing oneself to stop and consider what’s happening and to source from that historical bank of experience, a way forward.
Forward, and back in this reflection, is not designed to give you a headache, or to shuttle forward and back as a form of torture, but rather to go back and stop to think as mentioned above, and to gain strength and a way forward from the knowledge gained.
The little child creeps tries to stand, falls down, creeps again,stands holding on and eventually walks to safety at the parent’s knee.
KEEP USING YOUR SOURCES/RESOURCES!
IF YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS SERIOUSLY EFFECTED OR YOU ARE ON MEDICATION ALWAYS CONSULT YOUR HEALTH PROFESSIONAL.
aoibheann thoughtful reflections 