Walking in recovery can become very frustrating, and often causes feelings of rage and just total despair, but lets explore how and where we may find an answer to these feelings, which are almost like a ‘fallout’ of nuclear proportions ——–just my attempt to emphasis the level of hopelessness and powerlessness one can feel.
In almost every conversation I have had in recent times, with friends and acquaintances someone will say ”the world has changed” and in all propability will continue to talk of the chaos the world is in, and maybe continue to discuss climate change and the plight of the refugees, and the craziness of the whole desperate situations around us.
Often such discussions/conversations do nothing to increase our stability and leave us more unsettled within ourselves than before we engaged in them. It has long been part of understanding trauma to include the idea , that a person’s world view changes with trauma, but this does not necessarily mean ,with individual, and group trauma we should consider that the world has changed totally.
Fear in a world that has most certainly changed, and developed at such speed during the last 100 years or so is natural, and is hard to understand and tolerate. It knocks at the areas of safety which have been ingrained in us throughout our life time and at the norms and mores which whilst frustrating at times have a holding function , a sense and knowledge at the deepest level of what is normal.
However it is important to see that we can renew ourselves and maintain a personal world view with morals and values designed to keep us safe and allow us all to grow and develop in healthy ways, we can do this if we engage with our personal power, through our imagination.
I have talked of this before in previous blogs, and it is not easy if you feel suppressed by deep and negative feelings, maybe you are on medication or need further support,and to have the feelings and circumstances you are in heard and understood. I sometimes think it is like being lost and looking for a way out, one searches and searches even against all odds and eventually a small streak of light becomes visible and opens up possibilities for us.
If you can imagine you follow the light and it emerges into a beautiful river with areas which surge up and wash your feet and legs. Imagine the beautiful water coming up through your feet and travelling through all of your body with renewing power right up and through your head and down again you feel clean and deeply renewed, calm and relaxed you can think, with clarity. Now ask yourself what is going on? What am I going to do?
GO ON USE YOUR IMAGINATION STAND IN RECOVERY!
If you have serious mental health issues always consult your health professional!
aoibheann thoughtful reflections 